Journey to Healing

by | Jul 9, 2020 | Mental Health | 2 comments

It’s been a while, again. I’m completely guilty of getting caught up in life and neglecting my blog. There are days I will look at my stats and see visitors, and I’m reminded I need to write some more. Then the thought fades.

A lot has happened in the last year, but I want to focus mostly on my mental health here.

In October of last year, I decided to give medication one more shot. I’m known for having terrible reactions to any type of medication, whether it be SSRI’s, SNRI’s, mood stabilizers or any of it. I’ve been taking a combination of Lamictal (mood stabilizer), Zoloft (anti-depressant), and Xanax to help manage my mental health. I meet with my psychiatrist on a monthly basis to review my medication, often with changes in dosages.

In February, right before Valentine’s Day, life got to be a little much and I was admitted to a behavioral health facility for a 24hr stay. More on that in another post.

Shortly following that episode, I was under pressure from a family member to change to a Christian counselor, and leave my former counselor. I was afraid, as most of us would be, about the change, and about having to share my past and life with someone who I didn’t know.

I eventually decided to do the switch (had to be stubborn about it first, obviously), being upfront that if I wasn’t a fan, I wouldn’t be going back.

Here I am about 2 months later and still seeing this new counselor.

I am seeing her on a weekly basis, and I don’t think there has been but maybe one session that I haven’t cried at. I forgot that with a real counselor, it was going to be painful and tough.

However, I had been fighting for almost 13 years for a real diagnosis. I received a general diagnosis back in 2007 when I was hospitalized for my mental health issues. They told me generalized anxiety disorder and chronic depression. As time had gone on, I knew there had to be more to it than that. My counselor and I sat down a few weeks back and worked through the DSM-V to find some answers.

After our hour session was done, I finally felt some peace and hope for the first time in a long time. The diagnosis was: Bipolar I, Borderline Personality Disorder, and PTSD.

As we sat there and talked about how these illnesses may present themselves, I had so many “ah-ha!” moments. Everything seemed to be so clear all of a sudden. Finally, these little monsters had a name!

She was able to present me with a treatment plan at the same time, Dialectal Behavior Therapy (DBT). It’s something completely new to me, but is geared mostly towards changing negative thinking patterns and aiming to create positive behaviors. We haven’t delved deep in to it quite yet, as we are still sorting through current/past issues and exposing those. I look forward to sharing my experience with it once we get completely underway.

The first step has been mood tracking. I have known over the years that there is a “pattern” to my experiences, and I have theories. The big thing is we’re tracking now to see if my theories are true, and discover other patterns I haven’t noticed yet.

June was my first-month tracking, and these are the things we noticed and will be something we watch for in the coming months.

  • Occasional Mixed Episodes (mania/depression in a short timeframe, or at the same time)
  • Depression coincides with anxiety
  • Elevated mood coincides with irritability
  • Trouble sleeping before a depressive episode

That’s about it for right now, more posts coming in the future as this new journey continues!

A couple of questions I am leaving today.

  • Do you have any experience with DBT? What was or has it been like?
  • Have you or a family member been diagnosed with BPD, Bipolar I/II or PTSD? What have the experiences been like? What were the feelings at diagnosis?


  1. RTS

    No need to feeling bad about not updating your blog.
    Your mental health takes priority over your blog.
    Please take care of yourself. There will come better days ahead. I will be thinking of you!

    • M.C. Schultz

      Thank you! I am doing much better and looking forward to continuing my journey and sharing with others along the way.


Leave a Reply

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

Medication and Mental Health

Although it is no different than taking insulin for diabetes, or medication for high blood pressure; taking medication for mental health is joined by a stigma. The medication was something that I...

Coronavirus and Mental Health

Coronavirus has changed the way we go about our daily lives.  Increased isolation, changes in routine, social distancing, and fear have all had a worldwide impact, especially related to mental...

On Borderline Personality Disorder and Life

Mental illnesses are considered invisible illnesses because they don't have a "look", and Borderline Personality Disorder falls into this category. You can't look at someone and know if they are...

15 Bible Verses for Mental Health

I wanted to do a post on some Bible verses that have meaning to me because I haven't shared a whole lot lately about my Faith, but it is important to me. I am still growing and learning, as are most...

Reflecting on “That Day”

No one wants to go to the hospital. Let alone go for anything related to mental illness. I was the same. Thankfully, I have people who were able to make sure I was taken care of. However, I made...

Shame and Embarrassment in Counseling

I've been in counseling for a while and started seeing a new counselor in May. It has been an eye-opening experience. The sessions have pushed me harder and further than I have been in the past. In...

“That Day” Episode 3

This is the final episode of the "That Day" trilogy and how my mental illness tried to take me out. Episodes One and Two are up for your viewing. Thursday Morning They let us know that breakfast had...

“That Day” Episode 2

You can read part 1 here. When we arrived and told them what was going on, I was taken back right away and put in a room with my parents. Still crying, but had resolved myself to the fact that this...

“That Day” Episode 1

***Potential Trigger Warning*** I previously shared the experience I had with being more open about my mental illness at work. You can read more about that here. In February 2020, I was extremely...

Mental Illness and the Workplace

I spent a good portion of my life struggling on my own; knowing something was “different” about me but I never had the support to help me get answers. Walking around aimlessly, I lived off of...






Join our mailing list to receive the latest blog posts and updates from The Art of Mental Illness.

You have Successfully Subscribed!

%d bloggers like this: