Today has been a struggle from the second I opened my eyes. Even before that. I didn’t sleep very well due to a variety of nightmares. I had to really force myself to go to work, and I love my job. Everything at work today was extremely overwhelming for what seems like no reason. I wanted to get up and just walk away screaming multiple times.
I’m now sitting here trying to convince myself that finishing the bottle of rum we have is not the way to go.
Ever feel completely alone in the world? That’s me right now. I feel like the only person I have to talk to is, well, myself.
I’m fighting with myself. Nearly every ounce of me wants to just shut down. Then there’s that small part that says don’t do it. I have kept a lot to myself. Now it’s too late. The people that cared have been left in the dark and now it’s me, myself, and I. I really shouldn’t be surprised though.
” I have learned now that while those who speak about one’s miseries usually hurt, those who keep silence hurt more.” – C.S. Lewis